Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Audrey’s Assault By Jasen Sousa

Audrey’s Assault


The family secret remains hidden, an act unspeakable, unforgiving.
Audrey keeps it concealed within her frivolous frame,
the hurt cannot be healed until it’s revealed, no one to trust, the truth of her father’s lust.
Once she was violated her worth was never the same, imagine the thoughts in her brain.
A father ignored the plea, “Halt!”
Forced to keep emotions locked inside her heart’s vault,
it’s not her fault,
this is Audrey’s assault.

It started before she reached her teens, the father entering his dreams through her jeans.
Explained how no one would listen to her screams, still not quite sure what it means.
Audrey accepts what she has been given, started to believe this was a normal way of living.
The experience ends, left in the corner looking out the window at the moon’s gleam.
A father ignored the plea, “Halt!”
Forced to keep emotions locked inside her heart’s vault,
it’s not her fault,
this is Audrey’s assault.

Told a friend about their romance, father saying, “I love you,” while pulling down her pants.
Best friend told her, “When you get a chance, find someone to tell.”
Audrey extremely nervous, her friend saying, “You don’t deserve this!”
Seduced by his sexual spell, the way he would yell, the way he would make her face swell.
A father ignored the plea, “Halt!”
Forced to keep emotions locked inside her heart’s vault,
it’s not her fault,
this is Audrey’s assault.

As she got a little older, became tired of the lynching way he used to hold her.
Wished she could cure her mother’s cancer in order to find the answer she needed.
Went through this by herself, all day lying to herself, at night never lying by herself.
Leaving for school everyday feeling defeated, depressed, drained, depleted.
A father ignored the plea, “Halt!”
Forced to keep emotions locked inside her heart’s vault,
it’s not her fault,
this is Audrey’s assault.

In a private journal she described how her father entered inside.
The internal pain she felt, when touched, her skin would melt.
Mom terminally ill, father overpowering her with his will, “Stay still!”
An image never to leave the mind, the way a father unbuckled his belt.
A father ignored the plea, “Halt!”
Forced to keep emotions locked inside her heart’s vault,
it’s not her fault,
this is Audrey’s assault.



Taken From
Selected Poems of Jasen Sousa
17-24
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Comprised of works from:
Life, Weather (First Collection of Poems Written At Age 17) (Not In College)
A Thought and A Tear for Every Day of The Year: A Poetic Diary (Written Between ages 18-19) (Stint at Suffolk University)
Close Your Eyes and Dream With Me (Written During Early Twenties) (Bay State College)
Almost Forever (Written During Early Twenties) (Bay State College)
A Mosaic of My Mind (Written at Age 24) (Beginning Emerson College)

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